Collecting data and livin'

Room for interpretation. There is always endless space for this. Between my expression, the words that rise from this expression, colorful flames from the ignition of kindling that is my life behind the curtain that separates me from the world. I don't condone negative thinking. I don't believe in being an enabler, even to my "self", to my "depression". There is a thin line between t hrowing gasoline on fire vs. smelling smoke, hearing a fire alarm, and trying to look the other way. There is a thin line between compassion for self and pity parties. There is a thin line between seeing a glass half full and half empty. Too much energy one way or another leads to illusion; a glass with water filled halfway can start to feel like a glass that seems almost empty, or almost overflowing, neither of which is an accurate depiction of how much water is in the glass. Learning to put out our own fires, sometimes in the process we mistakenly pour ga...

Wait Wait.   (Wait 10 seconds before reading the next line) Wait to....     (Wait 20 seconds before reading the next line) Waiting for.....    (Wait 40 seconds before reading the next line) Wait, what?    (Wait 80 seconds before reading the next line,                          and watch the clock tick for each second) Wait up!     (Wait 160 seconds before reading the next line,                          and watch the clock tick for every f-r-e-a-k-i-n  second) Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock Well, what are you waiting for? Wait. Forever. Or...... .... .. *The last line of this poem will appear if you continue to stare at this poem indefinitely -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Ti...

I've spent the last few years revamping my life. Painstakingly. Facing fears one by one. Sometimes overcome by fear. Losing many battles with it. What do I mean by losing battles? Meaning, the fear wins. It becomes more real than me. Losing to fear means it attacks me, and I can no longer differentiate between it and me. My thoughts are the thoughts of my fear. My feelings, gripping my heart and mind, are those caused by fear. For example, I fear a life of meaninglessness, purposelessness, disconnection. From this fear I produced POWERFUL longstanding memories of myself in a forest. There I am, alone. The only human left. Just time ticking, one second at a time, and despite being surrounded by nature and sounds of birds chirping and water running, all I can see, hear, and feel is eternity. I am nothing but living and breathing, restless and in pain. All my identities stripped from me. That of x-athlete, funny girl, goof ball, computer scientist, nerd. It's all gone. Just me, ...

Living life in fear is horrible 3:17 AM The fear of my brain being too tired tomorrow, and work therefore being extremely painful 3:19 AM Are there quotes about fear being the root of all evil? There is nothing to fear but fear itself it is healthy to be flexible. you will be ok That is the reference point, they are telling us that fear is the origin and all you have is distances from the origin, different lengths of fear Also derivatives and integrals(area of fear) apply to fear mathematics Isn't it weird how we start making memories before we even know that we make our own memories? That my friend, is our one downfall 3:24 AM they are all constructed and contextual and subjective 3:24 AM Yeah, so we're on the prowl of naming and organizing them better, to help point us in the right direction But we're like kindergarten girls soccer games, just run around chasing the ball 3:26 AM Do you ever think of t...

Support Vector Machines non probabilistic binary linear classifier There is a decision boundary When y=0 and Theta dot x <= -1, cost is 0 When y=1 and Theta dot x >= 1, cost is 0 Best line is decision boundary that maximizes distance to the positive and maximize distance to negative Nomral of the decision boundary maximies lengths of p means it is hitting source of light the most effectively

Wrapper for the sheets created by others Triggers Application.ScreenUpdating = false Today is the first day of the rest of your life. The trees, somehow they are telling me this. Myriad leaves detached from the tree they were once attached to. While attached to said tree, resisting from the wind Resisting by moving with the wind as seamlessly as possible, while still connected to the tree But at the moment when the bridge between leaf and tree breaks The leaf leaves without resistance It may land on the ground in time' We are all leaves attached to a tree Our bodies flow with the wind, but our brain stays attached to the tree branch With the most freedom to flow with the wind, the leaf has the best chance to absorb the most sun There is enough sun for everyone

They welcomed me into JPL. I got introduced at a meeting. I met with Joe, but also might be doing work for Gary Ball. Or others. I need to inquire if there is any Tableau work. Excel lynda can't hurt It's a game Staying organized Learn how those I work for keep their things organized. Follow their rules.